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My wish?

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To be able to put my thoughts and feelings down on a piece of paper, with a utensil, using colors, vivid words and scenery, to correctly portray my deepest feeling and emotions so others can understand the so closely, they feel as if it is almost a part of themselves. That is my wish. To be able to connect with those who began this art of many kinds through the correct portrayal of their feelings long, long ago. I wish………..


I wish I was able to………

Every time I die, I fail to finish anything I start…  I fail to become anything I want to when I am done. If I try, then it never works, maybe it will be the time I stop trying, everything will come together…truth….truth……”truth”?

What is it that anyone can truly call truth anyways? What one knows to be factual physically or psychologically? To be able to truly have an open mind and to seek absolute “truth” you must be able to accept the simple fact that there is no such thing, at which point you will become free…

But………

If it is a fact that there is no absolute “truth”, then how can one be sure to even know that that in itself is true or not? For all we have to base our lives and everything else on, is lies.

How is anyone, EVER supposed to live their lives, once everything changes every minute of every day, as it always does. If you are afraid of change, then you must not be; yet if you are not, you may be too intelligent for your own good.

And to be that intelligent, you then realize the chilling fact that we all should kill ourselves.

At the same time, it’s everything you’ve chosen to live your life against…the ultimate ignorance and selfishness…suicide…

Nothing is right.

Nothing is right, except the one healthy yearn to have never been created.

To know that you are finally at peace, is to know that you never should have been created.


The irony of us all……….KILLS…doesn’t it…

;)
I started writing this when I stopped being so artistic and dramatic. I thought I wanted to be...dark, and mystrious, with hidden messages layered underneath miles of crazy shit....But this really made me realize something. You can actually see the evolution in this piece. This means alot to me. This is the kind of stuff that runs through my head every second of everyday, except more hardcore. i am finnally able to show the wold a little piece of my mind....:D
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yet if you are not, you may be too intelligent for your own good.

And to be that intelligent, you then realize the chilling fact that we all should kill ourselves.
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Jesus H. Christ on a cracker.

That is so intensly mind blowing I can barely stand it.

When we finally talk to each other, I have to share with you a poem I think you would love. It's by an old, old friend of mine, Romeo.

I'm so addicted to your words, it's insane. I should upload more of my writing. (-note to self-) Would you mind if I illustrated some of your pieces? I want to paint some of your words.